I knew that regardless of the homesickness felt while in NC, that I would adjust to being back in CA. This, for the most part has been true. I have gotten back into my job, run an event, will be visiting patients, ave been to a memorial service, etc.
Tonight I'm going to a book club and choir practice at the UU church where we just became members. I do fit here. It's so strange, because when I'm in NC, I really feel as though I could stay and, thought I would terrible miss people, that I could live there. But then I come home, and the pain I felt lessens so dramatically that it feels like it was a dream that I ever felt that way.
It's not quite as drastic a drop of feelings as it was when we lived in Claremont/Upland, because we had an even more incredible community there. I think I'll still look up jobs in NC and consider a Chaplain residency at New Hanover Medical Center or some other place near Wilmington.
Another thought I want to share: Choir at CST was way more spiritually nourishing and uplifting than the choir at the UU church. There's so much negative energy. Because of the part that I sing, I'm next to this woman who is constantly throwing out insulting comments out about fellow singers. In particular, she does not care for this one person and is constantly being bitchy. The negative energy is so palpable that I leave feeling frustrated, annoyed, and drained. On the completely other hand, I never flt more uplifted and happy than I did at CST choir. I laughed so much, made silly comments, felt loved...I miss it dreadfully.
And on that longing note, I must get ready for work now. Peace.
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